Why I'm going back to therapy...

I'm about to take my ass back to therapy ASAP!

I left therapy about 7 months ago. Well, I didn't initially intend to, my therapist started missing appointments and I got frustrated so I just gave it up. I'd come to the conclusion that I didn't need it right then anyway simply because I wasn't experiencing things that made me need to talk them out.

After my recent road trip with a friend to New York, I'm definitely going to need to get back in therapy.

Now, don't freak out. I know that sounds incredibly dire, but I really enjoy therapy. I suffer from a bunch of mental weirdness that make it, so I spend a lot of my life confusedly confuddled and utterly dumfounded. As you might imagine, that is incredibly frustrating. But for the last little stretch of time, I haven't experienced anything new enough to confuse me, which I don't think is very good. That means I'm not being very adventurous, which is bad for a person with a person like me. But I am now confused as fuck and going back to therapy to talk it out, which is undoubtedly a good thing.

Oftentimes, when I'm doing bad mentally, I don't want to go to therapy because I don't want to talk about it. But when I'm doing well, I feel optimistic enough to seek out help because I know it will work. Every time I've ever gone to talk therapy it has effectively helped me get my mind straight.

I've never had a single bad therapist, even the one that missed appointments. We are in a fucking pandemic after all, which he'd recently contracted and was pretty bad for him. Therapists are people too!

I say all this because, therapy often gets a bad rap. But truthfully it doesn't deserve it. Outside the rare obviously problematic, immoral or illegal stories, most negative things you hear can be related to patient failure.

Typically, people go into therapy with some incredibly unclear idea of what it is/can be for them. Talk therapy works for me because all I want out of it is to understanding and advice. That's what it’s for. It's essentially your closest confidant but without the shame of having to interact with them outside of your paid relationship. And some qualifications that help them understand what going on inside you versus how they feel about what's going on inside you. That way you can live the rest of your life without the weight of confusion and avoided emotions.

It's essentially like going to the gym so you're more physically fit for your actual life but like for your brain. And that's why!